This was Kevin and I’s first week with just the twins in nearly a month, and… wow. Let me just start off by saying that we love our three older kids immensely, and we miss them the second we get home from dropping them off with their other parents. The invisible weight of only seeing … More Sunday #27
When I was pregnant, everyone warned me that once the babies were born, I would hate my dog. I heard story after story of burnt-out, exhausted mothers who couldn’t stand the smell of their dog, the sound of their dog licking his paws, the way the dog always seemed to be standing right where she … More A Postpartum Love Letter to My Dog
It was eight o’clock in the morning, and I was on my hands and knees on the floor of my kids’ bathroom, scrubbing the bathtub. I had come into the bathroom simply to put away some of my daughters’ bows, and I had found those bows while cleaning my office downstairs, and I was cleaning … More The Days Are Long, But the Years Are Short
It’s hard to believe that a week ago, we were somewhere on our journey home from Utah. That truly feels like forever ago! Real life hit hard once we got back, so much so that I didn’t go to work Monday simply so I could do everything that needed to be done. I had to pick up … More Sunday #26: God Is In the Details
I hope they remember the mom that was happy, and not the mom that was at her breaking point. Or at the very least, I hope they remember both. And I hope on those hard nights, those burnt-out afternoons, that I remember the mom that is happy, that I remember that joy is a choice, and that I can find a way to turn up the music and dance through the tears. … More I Hope My Kids Remember the Joy
“Alright, we’ll give you $59.83 in cash or $77.82 in store credit.” “I’ll take the cash,” I replied quietly. I heard the cash register pop open, the rustle of paper bills, the clink-clank of counting change. But my mind was elsewhere. “Here ya go!” the cashier chirped, dropping my bounty in my hand. I didn’t even look … More I Don’t Want To Be Done Having Babies…
This weekend, my brother is getting married in Utah, a good 1,700 miles away from our home in North Carolina. My, husband, my oldest daughter, and I fly out the day the twins turn five months old. But the twins will be staying home, spending four nights with a friend, instead. And yes, I’m looking … More I’m Not a Bad Mom for Leaving My Babies
Given that anxiety is something I’ve struggled with throughout my life, and that I was diagnosed with postpartum anxiety following the birth of my oldest daughter, I just assumed that I would have raging postpartum anxiety once the twins arrived. To my surprise, though, I felt great after the twins were born. I kept waiting … More Postpartum Anxiety, Is That You?
A few days ago, my youngest daughter, Evelyn, fell asleep in my arms as I gently rocked her in the nursery. Her twin sister, Emersyn, was already asleep in her crib. Finally, I thought, now I can put her down and maybe get some stuff done, or just lay down myself. There was a mountain of dishes … More The Everyday Grief of a Twin Mom
This Week in Review It was so good to have all five of our kids under one roof again, but wow were we busy! Kevin and I continue to work on opposite shifts, meaning that he leaves as soon as I get home around 3:00pm everyday, and then is gone until close to 11:00pm. Those afternoons and … More Sunday #24: Megan Speaks in Church!!!
