Guess who’s back!
To say that I’ve withdrawn over the past few years would be a massive understatement. Starting in 2017, it seemed that I was going through one traumatic event after another, with no end in sight. Loved ones passed away, I got engaged but then called it off, I left the religion that was my whole childhood and framework for life, I got married at only 19, was pregnant and became a mom during the pandemic, got divorced, and almost dropped out of college at least three times. And that just scratches the surface.
I shared some of my thoughts and feelings about all of that online, whether on this blog or on my Instagram. Some people would praise me for speaking out about my challenges and journeys, while others criticized and insulted me for my choice to speak out. Around 2021, I couldn’t compartmentalize the criticism anymore, so despite my love of writing and storytelling and helping others through hard times, I stopped sharing.
Now to give the negative Nancy’s some credit… (1) I don’t think any of them truly knew what was going on behind closed doors (and how could they? Nobody did) and (2) I was probably not the most mature or tactful when sharing my personal life experiences. I was practically just a kid. When I look back on seventeen year old to twenty two year old Megan, my heart breaks. I feel sad that she didn’t have the courage to better her life, that she let her depression control her, and angry at all of the people that abandoned her and hurt her when she needed them the most.
But at the end of the day, I’m proud. Proud of how I pulled myself together, took care of myself when no one else would, and got my life back on track. I’m proud of how much I grew in such a short amount of time. I often joke with my friends that I forget I’m only 24, and not in my thirties, and it’s true. No one my age should have to go through even one of the many things that I have.
I’m glad I found my old blog (though I don’t miss the cringy, oversaturated photos era) and hope to post on here more often in the coming months. I miss the long-form storytelling, and like that I can go more in depth on here than I would on Facebook or Instagram, while maintaining this blog as a safe space. I hope to dive into some of the nitty gritty, complicated topics that have constituted a large part of my life the past few years, including motherhood, divorce, navigating blended family life, (kind of) stepmomming, religion, college, and so much more.
If any of that sounds at all interesting to you, or if you’re just a supporter of me, I hope you’ll stick around to see what I have to say and thank you all for being here! I would not be where I am today — more mature, confident, informed, and at peace with my life — if it were not for my amazing support system.
Much love,
Megan
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